Internship volunteer

Volunteer or take an unpaid internship. You're 19 so you probably have no clue what you want to do with your life, so just pick something thats interesting or has something to do with a hobby. 

Jobs are hard to get for college kids with no experience, but internships and volunteer work are pretty easy to find and both look good on a resume. You usually have more schedule flexibility, plus you can afford it because your parents are paying your way. Stop talking to that bitch, seriously. The girl is calling you up for emotional and conversational support because her ex-now-boyfriend probably treats her like shit, which is why he is fucking her and you arent. Either chew her the thing out and hang up next time she calls you wanting to talk about her bullshit, or just don't answer. Yeah actually just dont answer. Nothing good will come of that. You have the same misconception about confidence that a lot of young people have. You dont sit down with a pen and paper and brainstorm "hmmm how do i confidence???" Confidence is not a goal, it's a byproduct of achievement in your life. Pick two things you want to be better at. For example the big one for me is physical fitness, but they can literally be anything you want to be good at. Work at them until you are and until the results are visible in some way to others. That good feeling that you have at the end when you're better than you were before? That's confidence.